From Torture Cells to a Beautiful Survivor
Being thrown into a torture cell at a very young age damages a child forever
Some think it doesn’t hurt her, but it does in more ways than one
It stays with her forever, even haunts her in future relationships
Not knowing why she is being tortured, not knowing what she did to deserve it
She is told she is not beautiful, and only good for one thing to him
Even though her tormentor says no, she is very, very, beautiful
She then grows up and tries to move past the pain
But once again she finds herself thrown back into another torture cell
This time it’s not of someone else’s doing, but of hers in the form of a first boyfriend
Remembering all the words of her past, she lets the second tormentor reel her in
She’s told once again that she’s not beautiful, and only good for one thing
But guess what, with two tormentors saying no, she still is very, very, beautiful
She gets away from the second tormentor, and finally out of his torture cell
To sadly fall right back into another, this one would almost be the death of her
From beating and verbal put downs, to forced actions, to unmentionable to speak
Losing all three of her beautiful children, ending up in a man made hell called prison
She struggles day to day to live, but also to be a healthy survivor
All three monsters told her she was ugly, and only good for one thing to them
But guess what, to all three monsters, she is very, very, beautiful and she finally knows it
She is trying so hard now to break the cycle, the cycle of monsters, tormentors, and their cells
She has finally found someone who loves her the way she should’ve been loved from the start
It’s sad to say it took her losing everything to finally get away from the torture cell’s chains
She is told daily she is loved, and how beautiful she truly is
She is a Survivor, a very, very, beautiful one
This was written by Virginia, an inmate, for the “I Am Beautiful” book series Volume 6. Art is the creative work of Tracy, an inmate.
The I Am Beautiful project represents the personal contributions of women inmates across the country who sent us their writings and art regarding their experiences of abuse. This work is their personal writing and art.
The project encourages them to express their past experiences, their road to survival over abuse, and their opportunity to make a difference in the lives of other women in prison who have experienced indignity and violence at the hands of others, often from those who were supposed to love them.
A Survival Resource – Created by and for Women
It is our hope that everyone who reads this book will be encouraged and strengthened to stand up, count themselves worthy of dignity, and see themselves as beautiful within and without.